~Blessed~

I guess it was fate ..I was not meant to lose this phone just yet...you couldn't imagine my relief when I found it...I practically turned my house upside down just to find it ....took me three days but alas I found it...and that day was special;)

Why special...well some of you may believe some of you may not...but I always did being a Catholic...you see we believe in saints and each particular saint has his special gift to help us out...in this instance it would be St. Anthony who is known as the finder of lost things...my great grandmother had always told my grandmother ever since she was little that whenever she loses or misplaces something precious to pray to St. Anthony for help and this my grandmother taught my mom and my mom passed it onto me...and I can honestly say that none of my prayers have gone unanswered...every time I lose something this special prayer always helps me find it and in the most unlikely of all places...the places we probably searched a thousand times...but something always tells you to go check again...or maybe it just appears out of nowhere... literally!

My mom once told me that when she was younger that she had lost a fifty dollar note (mind you that was big money back in the time)...she looked all over and couldn't find it and she had been many places with the money so it could have fallen down anywhere...so as she was sitting in her porch all of a sudden there was this gust of wind and a piece of paper slapped her right across her face... low and behold it was the fifty dollar note!!...amaizing!...as for the phone I could swear that I looked in every possible place I could think off...then all of a sudden my uncle asked me too go check my room but I told him that I had already done it tonnes of times....but the phone was no where in sight..

He told me to do it anyway because he had a strong feeling that it was there...so I looked through my cupboard...cleared my bed...dressing table...you name it...but still no sight of the phone...but in my head I kept repeating the prayers to St. Anthony in hopes that it would show up...then as I was leaving the room my attention turned to the small laundry basket my mom keeps in the corner of my room where she stores the hangers and socks but I was thinking no way it could be in there I don't even touch it...but i checked anyway...and to my surprise as I lifted up a bunch of socks my hand phone fell right into the palm of my hand....my heart stopped!!!...I couldn't believe it...and the most special thing about that day is that it was the day we Catholics celebrated the feast of St. Anthony...I am so grateful that he answered my prayers yet again...but yes I did learn a valuable lesson about being a little more responsible with my stuff and where I put them;)...p/s : the pic above is of St. Anthony carrying little baby Jesus...too cute!! we have the same statue in church!!

Another one of those things I have to let go... I guess...

I am so very upset today I searched the whole house and still could not find my phone...I accidentaly left it in the house before i went off to KL for a couple of days and when I got back it was gone just like that!...i try to call it but it always goes to my voicemail...I don't know if it's stolen or just lost somewhere in the house???...I hope I get it back because it was a present to me from my dad and one of my favourite one's too...I couldn't bear the tought of losing it!!!...Still keeping my fingers crossed..and hoping that I'd eventually find it:)

My Hero

It has been two weeks since my dad has left me...I didn't have the strength to pen it down..but i have picked up enough courage to say it now..I swear life is not the same...a million things remind me of him...and if I have to express my grieve i do it by myself because I have to remain a "rock" for my mother, brother and uncle...it's not easy but it's a task that i would willingly undertake because I love these three more than life itself...at times I question why?...but then I believe God has he's plans and everything happens for a reason...I am spiritual and I believe in life after death so NO my dad is not truly gone...I am grateful for the time i had with my dad this past year...never have I had the chance to spend that much time with him...the most I got to spend him if ever before this was a month and yet I see him in everything...I know my dad would never want me to be sad and knowing that he is in a better place truly makes me happy...he has been a very good, kind and compassionate person on earth and will get his due reward in Heaven I believe...I was right there by his side right till the very end and the one thing I could remember was how peaceful he was as he gently passed on and I knew that at that moment he had abandoned all life's worries and troubles...one day I wish to have the same and I believe at that moment is when we will meet again:)

~A Little Message~

For those of you who have viewed my recent status updates on facebook....you're probably puzzled as to why I'm in hospital...and just to clear the air...no I have not been admitted but rather my father has been for the past week!...I would not go into detail to explain the reasons but he is not doing to well and I have been staying over to take care of him and don't worry about me I am doing fine...at this time I would appreciate your prayers for my dad's speedy recovery..thank you very much=)

Tagged!!=)

I have so many posts to complete but don't have the time haha....I started on this tag by Hannah and then got interrupted and totally forgot bout it...hehe...it's past midnight but yeah I' totally free..yay!...so here goes;)

1.Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed??
>> Geez I dunno...hmmm...how bout the hand...u noe in that prince charming style...wait nope...that's nt it...hickies?? too boring...well we'll just have to wait see;)

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
>> I can't even remember....oh yeah I probably did not want to...nigel was of to church camp so i had no one to irritate...and that makes me happy sooo I guess I was sad???

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?with Justina?
>> One of my dad's weird relatives came to visit and thought it would be fun to take a pic of me and my dad in which case he got really annoyed being camera shy and asked her to stop...haha

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
>>Not by choice

5.Will you ever donate blood?
>> Nope but I should I'm an O+...oh yeah the real good stuff=)

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
>> I wouldn't say best friend...just an acquaintance like any other all friends are special in their own way;)

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
>> Oh dear Lord NO!...I do hate but never sincerely wish they were dead!

8.What does your last text message say?
>> Can't remember it's been ages since I've seen my phone haha..

9.What are u thinking right now?
>> Right after mom falls asleep I'm gonna take over the tele and play "bully"...while greedily midnight snacking on Rocky...hehe

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
>> Yes!! Nigel please I'm bored!

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
>> Bout 3...like I normally do...well that counts as morning so no I didn't go to sleep last night..haha

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
>> Mydin...the Malaysian version of Tesco

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
>> Michael Jackson...:(

14.Who was the last person to text you?
>> Celcom reminding me to pay my bill

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...
>>Anyone who comes across this tag...that is if you want to

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
>> Male duhhh...he's my dad what were you thinking?

17. If no. 7 and and no. 1 get together, would it be good?
>> Uhmmm I guess not?

18. What is no. 10 studying about?
>>He's studying...??...SPM...the most useless exam evcr...wish I could relieve him of his misery..


19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
>> Yesterday

20. Is no. 4 single?
>> I won't lie yes...but I love it=)


21.Say something about no. 2.
>> She needs to get her sodding ass outta bed and do something with her life!

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
>>..HUH?

23.Describe no. 9.
>> A master plan that's still pending

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no. 7 fight?
>> Too lazy to scroll up to see haha

25. Do you like no.8?
>> Yes I do sorry I don't spend much time with you:(

DONE!!!!

Innocence Lost

The world is just so nasty isn't it..somehow people take pleasure in other people's misfortune...when someone living a seemingly perfect life takes a fall they go like.."huh!...there you go I told you they weren't perfect...hahaha...they have a sucky life...yay!! now I can rest in peace"...trust me growing up I've met a lot of idiots like these that just make me sick!! and I'm still meeting them along the way!....people are not all nice and sweet they have "evil"...feelings about you..just full of "the green-eyed monster"....

By now even if you don't watch the show Jon and kate plus 8...you'd have already heard of Jon and Kate Gosselin and the supposed "affair" that Jon had with some mindless fool...it's publicised for the world to see...every tiny bit of detail...I mean come on every family has problems and this one could have been dealt with by the couple in a more private and personal matter but the media pounced on them relentlessly bringing out accusations after accusations....and somehow although this whole problem was started by Jon they somehow managed to turn the story around and make Kate the "monster mom"..calling her money greedy and all sorts....I mean put the pieces together people if you had eight kids you need to have money to support them...duh!..they probably started the show to help them out financially because adjusting to a life with 8 little kids with income from only one spouse is not enough to cut it .

Now that the media has sort of succesfully torn this family to shreds....they just won't leave Kate and the kids alone...I mean hey leave her alone...if she wants to work and find money the best way she knows how for her kids....then just leave her to it....afterall her sodding hubby is probably out fehking( xcuse my language) his blow up bimbo...go mess with him instead....think of the kids what kind of life of life will they have being constantly hounded by the paps....should they even know what paps are I mean they're only 5!!! now that everybody is siiting back and enjoying the mess they've made by destroying this family have they evenntaken a second to think about the kids...mom and dad are living apart...why???...why are there sooo many people taking pics of us???...why do people stare at us like that???....now what have they done to deserve this??...why don't we see aunt Jodi and uncle Kevin anymore??? (oh and did I mention that even Kate's bro and sis-in-law are backstabbing her..because they don't get a fair share of money??...unbelievable)

It's just so sad I've been watching this kids grow for years and this is what it has come to because of nosey people who won't stay out of other ppls business???....all I can say is I feel bad for the kids...having to be in a broken home at such a tender age...just hope that everything gets better for them...fingers crossed...here are some pics in case you don't know them..sorry for overloadin but they're just so cute...I had to post tonnes;)

The kiddies:

The older twins Cara and Mady

Mady Kate Gosselin:

Cara Nicole Gosselin:

The Sextuplets;)

The boys:

Joel Kevin Gosselin:

Collin Thomas Gosselin:

Aaden Jonathan Gosselin:

The Girls:

Alexis Faith Gosselin:

Hannah Joy Gosselin:

Leah Hope Gosselin:

The Gosselin Family:

TTFN;)

~Keen eye for the right guy~

I know this is sooo random but was just roughly browsing and came across this picture of Robert Plant's son Logan Plant

and the for some reason the first thing that crossed my mind was wow he looks like the ideal Prince of Persia...minus the curly hairdo (I think he gets that from he's dad..haha)

(you know that game rite?? anyways they're making it into a movie and it will be out next year)...I think he looks more like the prince instead of Jake Gyllenhaal.

..i guess I would make a better casting director..haha just a thought;)...ohh the things a bored mind can conjure up...till then TTFN;)